(more like ” I’m so immature, help?”)

I’m a fresh grad and I’m in my early 20’s. But the guy I love (my bestfriend! yay!) told me that he doesn’t see me as girlfriend material. How painful is that?

Of course I wondered why and in a number of our conversations he said that I was childish and.. that I need to be more lady like. Erase erase. What he actually said was that maybe we could try.. but when I grow up. Ouch.

I haven’t asked him how he defines childish but I’m going to assume that it’s someway between immature and naive. or innocent if I’d rather have a weaker blow to my ego.

So as usual, I set about and went on an internet adventure to see how I could mature myself. I’m not crazy. Just.. in a hurry.

So.. what now? I guess I read a bit and realized that he may be right. But.. I feel like a part of me would be treated euthanasia. And that part is what I love the most about myself.

So let me give you 25 reasons why I feel bad about growing up:

25. I love cartoons! (mindless violence and IQ sucking 2ds FTW!)

24. I love laughing out loud, and yes, I have the weird kind of laugh that make people turn heads. (BWAHAHFWAGWAGRGWAAA!)

23. Add to number 24, I laugh at almost everything. Open mouth and all. very unladylike, but hey, That’s naturally me.

22. I’m a slob. I kind of promote organized messes and thrive in them!

21. I don’t mind dirt. Well.. I guess hygiene takes the back seat sometimes… Like forgetting to iron my uniform, having pen ink stains on my pockets.. rotten sandwiches in my bag.. Huh.

20. I trip a lot. I break things a lot. I  destroyed his gasses twice (I didn’t mean to! I swear!)

19. I lie a lot, according to him I’m a compulsive liar. This thing may be true, but I do try my best not to. Just little white ones? But I guess the road to hell is paved with good intentions and if I’m to go by what he believes.. I’ll be roasting marshmallows in a perpetual oven at God knows what degree.

18.

-UNDERCONSTRUCTION-